I'm trying, guys. I haven't drawn much in the past 6 months but I'm trying to still be slightly artistic, even though my job takes up ALL of my time. I work at the racetrack which means i work in the morning AND again at night, and sometimes in the afternoon as well. I have no time for anything and I have no energy when it comes to having a social life. I live on the adrenaline it takes to handle the thoroughbred racehorses, and try to make it through the day without acquiring any major damage. But i still want to try to be connected to things i used to love doing...sewing, reading, drawing...even really simple things like sitting down to watch a movie...I don't have time for it anymore. And i want to. So I'm trying to submit some pictures I took of a creepy old house for a first attempt of a return on here.
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You know what's frustrating? That i am having such a hard time getting through this journal entry. I'm not focused on it because i keep thinking of the races i'm working in tonight and what i have to do before then. I need a freakin chill pill. Do they make those? And no i don't mean marijuana, even though everyone tells me i really should start smoking it because it would really help me calm down Aren't i tragic?

A week ago monday i took a music theory test to try to pass the first semester of theory for the university i'm at. I figured i failed, and stopped checking my email excessively to see if i passed it or not. Just today i found out i did indeed pass. And that i was supposed to be at theory 2 today. and meet with the professer. at 4 pm. TODAY. It was about 10 pm when i received this information.

ummmm. Fail?

right now i'd like to go cry for a gooooood long time.

Goooooood lord i'm putting a lot a miles on my car. I'm about to head back to my room at college shortly, then i come back to my general area tomorrow night for orchestra rehearsal then i go back up then i come back again for the bloody concert on wednesday night and have to miss a class for itttttt ahhhhh!!! anyway. life=chaos.

i have a lot to do to get ready and i don't think i'll be ready by the time i'm supposed to meet my friend to take her up with me so i'm in a mild state of panic at this moment. why am i spending time on here??? i need to leave~!!

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets
5. Post this in your journal.
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1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Face the truth

2. How would you describe yourself?
New Rose
[Well...it could be worse?]

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
BYOB
ahahahahahahah....???

4. How do you feel today?
Riot
[not accurate, but it would work)

5. What is your life's purpose?
Stand Alone
[Erm...that wasn't exactly my plan...]

6. What is your motto?
Sonata for Flute and Piano: Presto Giocoso
[...would my motto be just give up on life? that movement is a BEAST!]

7. What do your friends think of you?
Scotland the Brave
technically, it would be ireland the brave since my name is erin

8. What do you think of your parents?
Clair de Lune

9. What do you think about very often?
Beautiful Emptiness

10. What is 2 + 2?
Raise the knife
[Raise the knife against math? ok!]

11. What do you think of your best friend?
One Day i'll Win
[i didn't know it was a competition)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
We Could Run Away
[SO FUNNY FOR SO MANY REASONS!!! technically i don't "like" anyone, but i enjoy obsessing, and this goes SOOO WELLL!!!!]

13. What is your life story?
Yours to hold

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Siuil a Run
...

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Silence of the Darkness
i suppose "silence" is because i don't like anyone.

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Alegria
YAY

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Theater of Pain
how sad

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Dream
not gonna lie, i have good dreams worthy of documentation

19. What is your biggest fear?
Pilgrimage from Darkness

20. What is your biggest secret?
War inside my head.
[im a schitzo! haha]

21. What do you think of your friends?
Believe

22. What will you post this as?
ghost love score
hehe

i was tagged by

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs.

1 ~>I have an incredibly serious fear of frogs. It may have to do with some childhood experienes that caused this fear, but i will scream, cry, and run away when i see a frog or toad.

2 ~> I have gotten to play with a professional orchestra 5 times in my life (6 after tomorrow :3)

3 ~> I enjoy any movie or book involving princesses and princes and love and happiness =]

4 ~> I read a bit more than i should. I got Twilight on a Saturday night, started reading at midnight, stopped at 7:30, slept for 30 minutes, got up and finished it, started rereading it sunday, bought New Moon and Eclipse monday morning, finished Twilight sometime on monday, started new moon, finished it at 11 AM, then started Eclipse. i didn't get much sleep.

5 ~> I have never had a boyfriend

6 ~> I have never had a first kiss

7 ~> I am not a vegetarian, but I don't really like to eat meat.

8 ~> This one is not mine, but I love it so I'm keeping it because its so true! YOU ROCK MARIELY!! "Honestly, I love the small friendships I've made on here. I think if I'm constantly seeing your deviations, or replying to your every word, I truly consider you my dA friend! I have no problem expanding that out onto messengers or myspace/facebook/etc! I'm happy to have met super sweet Twilighters here! We own the universe!"

TAG YOU'RE IT!

PS-thank you Mariely for explaining that =]